1 Day...

I knew, 1 day i might be hurt. But i still wont stop trying.
I knew, that if you loved someone so much, u would want her to be happy even she decided not to be with you.
I knew, that this flower would not bloom, but i will still keep taking care of it and i hope that 1 day miracle would happen.
I knew, i wont dare to express my feeling. Scaring that you might wont talk to me anymore. Scaring that you might dont want to go out with me anymore. Scaring that you might wont see me anymore.
Im scared, really scared. Scared of losing you that i wouldnt even know that this we do together is really a normal friendship or is it you loving me back as what im loving you now.
Beside all those love i have before that compared to the love that im trying to give, i can assure that this is the one i putting a lot af afford at.
Im even surprise myself that im really doing all this kind of things .
But one thing for sure that i know that i really love you. This i cannot deny it.
-EMO-

Its Been So Long.

I cant seem to remember since when is the last time i blog myself out of this.

But things surely change a lot back den when im not around blogging.

Alot of unlucky things, irritating person, friends, social life, teenagers life, work place happens on me since den.

Im lucky that im still here now despite so many things happens.

Even when things turns out to be extreamly wrong for me, there are still friends that came to be to support me to stand up again no matter how hard i fell.

Life arent not even as nice as you will think it is.

Since after i start working, i can see that this is rather a cruel world for us to live in.

Its not as simple as i think i is, things are more complicated den it might be seen.

Even till now, im still struggling.

But things seem to change now as i realize theres someone that i still cherish most.

Its been 7 years since we parted. But until now, i just realize thats shes the one that im searching for all these years. I know that she is not perfect from the other way round. Things do change alot since i last saw her and that was back den for almost 5years ago ?

Since that day that i dreamed about her, her looks, her attitude, her lovely smile, her innocent and charming looks, everything just recall back. And thats the time that i wanted to find her back. I've already lost contact of her, but thanks to our popular social site FACEBOOK, i manage to browse thru her profile and finally. At first she can seem to recognize me as i've change alot from my looks and appearance since she last saw me, as a nerdy innocent kid to a smart looking guy?LOL!

Lucky me she manage to recognize me in the end after i tried to send her a message thru FACEBOOK. ;)

Well, i manage to get in touch with her for the first few weeks until things start turning out wrong. Not from me and her but the people that i trusted most.

You gave me hope when im down. But u just take it all away without even noticing it.

Please try to think about others people feelings about it. You dun realize it, but others do.

You're completely BLINDED by your so called, LOVE.

Well, just do things you wan and we wont even bother, since you wont hear from us. Dont bother to suicide urself one day as we wont be bothering either.

I wont just ran away anymore from this cruel reality. It hurts staying like this but i rather not hurt my own < > for it ;)

I'm Back!

HOHO~
Almost half year since i last blog? =x
i know it's been so long so be patient i will make myself update it everyday from now on..

Many things happen during this time..As to mention it i think it's been a YEAR i leave college..!! So damn miss my college life back then.. Well, it's already over for my life in college and now it's my time to build my career.. Since 18th of DEC i've been working at PranginMall till now, half year already.. and i've learn damn lot of things about life there.. thanks to Kevin, my boss.
Well.. i've planned to Baptain to learn hairstyling on this month but due to some reason it will be posponed.... When? i think after 2010 CNY? =.=
Plan ruined since then.. nvm, just delayed for another half year... so its time for me to WORK WORK WORK!!

Photo of the NEW ME will be uploaded when im free..its been very tiring after work everyday. Just got some time to online at night..
Oh guess wad, my phone are BARRED since 19th of March! Not been able to use my phone for around 2 months! But no worry, its active now. So no doubt for u guys to Msg me.

Tiring day, will be continue tomorow.~