1 Day...

I knew, 1 day i might be hurt. But i still wont stop trying.
I knew, that if you loved someone so much, u would want her to be happy even she decided not to be with you.
I knew, that this flower would not bloom, but i will still keep taking care of it and i hope that 1 day miracle would happen.
I knew, i wont dare to express my feeling. Scaring that you might wont talk to me anymore. Scaring that you might dont want to go out with me anymore. Scaring that you might wont see me anymore.
Im scared, really scared. Scared of losing you that i wouldnt even know that this we do together is really a normal friendship or is it you loving me back as what im loving you now.
Beside all those love i have before that compared to the love that im trying to give, i can assure that this is the one i putting a lot af afford at.
Im even surprise myself that im really doing all this kind of things .
But one thing for sure that i know that i really love you. This i cannot deny it.
-EMO-

Its Been So Long.

I cant seem to remember since when is the last time i blog myself out of this.

But things surely change a lot back den when im not around blogging.

Alot of unlucky things, irritating person, friends, social life, teenagers life, work place happens on me since den.

Im lucky that im still here now despite so many things happens.

Even when things turns out to be extreamly wrong for me, there are still friends that came to be to support me to stand up again no matter how hard i fell.

Life arent not even as nice as you will think it is.

Since after i start working, i can see that this is rather a cruel world for us to live in.

Its not as simple as i think i is, things are more complicated den it might be seen.

Even till now, im still struggling.

But things seem to change now as i realize theres someone that i still cherish most.

Its been 7 years since we parted. But until now, i just realize thats shes the one that im searching for all these years. I know that she is not perfect from the other way round. Things do change alot since i last saw her and that was back den for almost 5years ago ?

Since that day that i dreamed about her, her looks, her attitude, her lovely smile, her innocent and charming looks, everything just recall back. And thats the time that i wanted to find her back. I've already lost contact of her, but thanks to our popular social site FACEBOOK, i manage to browse thru her profile and finally. At first she can seem to recognize me as i've change alot from my looks and appearance since she last saw me, as a nerdy innocent kid to a smart looking guy?LOL!

Lucky me she manage to recognize me in the end after i tried to send her a message thru FACEBOOK. ;)

Well, i manage to get in touch with her for the first few weeks until things start turning out wrong. Not from me and her but the people that i trusted most.

You gave me hope when im down. But u just take it all away without even noticing it.

Please try to think about others people feelings about it. You dun realize it, but others do.

You're completely BLINDED by your so called, LOVE.

Well, just do things you wan and we wont even bother, since you wont hear from us. Dont bother to suicide urself one day as we wont be bothering either.

I wont just ran away anymore from this cruel reality. It hurts staying like this but i rather not hurt my own < > for it ;)

I'm Back!

HOHO~
Almost half year since i last blog? =x
i know it's been so long so be patient i will make myself update it everyday from now on..

Many things happen during this time..As to mention it i think it's been a YEAR i leave college..!! So damn miss my college life back then.. Well, it's already over for my life in college and now it's my time to build my career.. Since 18th of DEC i've been working at PranginMall till now, half year already.. and i've learn damn lot of things about life there.. thanks to Kevin, my boss.
Well.. i've planned to Baptain to learn hairstyling on this month but due to some reason it will be posponed.... When? i think after 2010 CNY? =.=
Plan ruined since then.. nvm, just delayed for another half year... so its time for me to WORK WORK WORK!!

Photo of the NEW ME will be uploaded when im free..its been very tiring after work everyday. Just got some time to online at night..
Oh guess wad, my phone are BARRED since 19th of March! Not been able to use my phone for around 2 months! But no worry, its active now. So no doubt for u guys to Msg me.

Tiring day, will be continue tomorow.~

Random

10December2008

Just another normal day at home till Jeff come over around 5pm and ask me to go watch movie.

I was like so WTF? suddenly come over and ask me go. 

Didn't even giv me time to prepare.DIU!

Have a quick bath and then went to fetch Vin and Hong before went over Jusco.

Then things dun seems to turn out wad it wanna to be.

There isn't any showcase of the movie we wanna watch x.x!!

Damn. Lucky Eric called and asked wanna go E.P or not.

Since nth do le so just went there and play poker=X

Someone was so high tat night till he sing so much.

Really admire him damn Eric. =X

Hmm. While in jusco we got nth do so we went over to play Gochapon @@

Just look how beautiful those grims is =X

<3

08December2008

Gathering At Jelutong

hehe. real life guild 'shishen' had a gathering at jelutong.

SeiZai rented a Motel nearby jelutong for everyone to meet there...

Planned to go there with Kenny around 5pm already.

But end up delayed due to waiting Kenny Father to come back to care of his shop~

Aihs. We're become latecomer instead of early bird ><

I was lis 'wow' when arrive there. So many people.

So many people there but so less that i know.

I think just 10 our of 30 plus ppl there tat i know.

Hmms..

Well, firstly when i walk in i just felt so shy~

Looks like a stranger cos those tat i know are inside the house.

So just stand outside and talk with some frens tat i really know =x

Well, they make steamboat. 1`of a kind steamboat =X

"PorriedgeSteamboat" =.=""

It looks weird at first sight cos, just never see it b4.

But we just throw everything in =X

Crab, Prawn,Fishball,Meatball,Meat,Chicken Meat, veg, etc.

Turn out the taste are great~

<3it.

After that already around 1am. 

Seizai then plan to go shake head =.=

So we make into 2 groups.

1st. go shake head

2nd. go cc gaming.

And of cos i will chose no.2 . 

If follow them go shake head later my head might fall off =X

Played around 3hours. Then time pass so fast. Gosh its already morning.

Went back to the banglo tat time.

But too bad. We cant seem to find  a place to sleep ==!!

Then just walk around till 7am and started go regain the enegy bac.

Then everyone were bac tat time. And gather in a room.

Feel so kepo and went in to have  a look.

Then once walk in kena le x.x

Ask me join them play Poker.

Loser drink those chivas directly from the bottle x.x

Lucky me just lose few round then no need drink so much.

If not sure dead there and get raped x.x

Thx to the alcohol. It make me sleepy again.

Quickly find a place on the bed to lay off and slp.

Too bad. Just can slp for around 2hour+.

So damn tired !!

Later then directly went home and have a cold bath.

Wala~ not sleepy snymore =="

Thats the day =X

...

Day by day just pass like that.

Few blink in the eyes and a day had gone.

Things that we've done few months ago just seems like just happened yesterday.

Time flow so fast, even we cant chase it.

In just 1 and a half month time already CNY.

And it will just pass just like that.

Everyone will come back for a moment and then dissapear again.

Hmmm..

Well, actually i had planned to go Kl on 11th. 

Main reason is pei grandma go da yi home.

Then go Huang home stay =X

Second reason i wanna giv u a suprise.

But it seems that i had failed.

Think i just postponed it.

And u told me u might be coming Pg around that date also.

hmms..

Guess i go during christmas ba.. still haven decided..

Quite boring here.. everyday doing things like no tomorow.

But, i wonder why, just u can make me feel free..

Any trouble in my mind will just gone like that..

Hmms..

Think i really need u by my side =X

Random

Aw~ i was like doing nothing in past few weeks. Slack blog, slack this slack that.. boring~

Not much happen recently~ just easily get frustrated on some things.. hmms..

Well, the recent event tat i attend was my uncle's son wedding dinner yesterday..

hmmm.. the groom were handsome and so are the bride are simply beautiful!

Everyone was having fun.. those uncle's keep come.."cheers"

Making me almost drunk~ lucky i still can control myself =X

Uncle smile are so great yesterday, since is his son wedding..

maybe cos he will be grandpa soon =X

smile smile smile ... laugh laugh laugh~ ngahah~

Hmm~ nth must to do. Nothing much to say. Nothing much to think.

Just wait wait wait....

Since i've already got some plan in mind, think ill work over it..

Nothing more to write.. since nothing much happen..

CHA~

-In Love-

Its been around 2 weeks since i came back knowing u once again..

Think its been awhile since we last talk when in MapleSea huh..

Well, first thought on my mind when i went to ur blog..its just to know u back...

But as time pass..deep inside myself i keep asking.

This feeling...its been so long since i last have them..

I wouldnt have thought that i will have it back so soon..

You've been here when im down..

You shine me lightly when im in the dark..

I wouldnt lie to myself..

But..

Jessica.. I think im already in love with you..

I've propose few time..but you tell me that you need more time to know me..

I wont blame you for that..because i understand that..

U told me alot of your past..hearing it make me tears out..

Making me more wanna take care of you..

Dont wanna let other bully you..

Dont wanna let you sad again..

Anytime Anywhere..Ill will be there.. waiting..

Times the matter..

I might not be nice..but i will try...

I might not be perfect..but i'm trying to be one..

Im might not be caring..but i dun think im not..

But i'll try my best to be the one for you..

I'll cherish this feeling..as much as i will cherish you...

I love you more then anything else..

But only times will tell..

Ill be waiting for you..

I promise...

~END~

18.10.2008 QueensBay, Hong & Vin Bday

Heheh~went to QueensBay on sat to celebrate Vin and Hong bday~

Its around 2pm already when we everyone gather and start take off from my home~Reached there around 2.40pm.

Once arrive~ we direct chiong to the cinima already @@

Buying ticket for the movie MaxPayne.

Well its not much interesting in this movie~

all we wanna c is just the Raven @@

So call when saw its thrailler~

So all went smooth and after movie, we went to Sakae for SUSHI!!

Aint the cup beautiful?<3

Well after our Sushi~<3>

Well when talking~ me and huang already started planned something~

2 Siao kia act Rabbit~ Thought It will onli be light and shadow~ end up fail~

Wanna try to be PlayBoy Bunny actually @@

Well, as u can tell from the pic below~ deToileete~

Nth do while in the wash room and discovered a big mirror @@

cant stand it and took some of our pic with it @@

Me(In Vk Version 2.0) & Jeff

Me Leo And Jeff

FlashLIght RoX!!

OK after everyone done their business~ all already stated gather in front of the miror as they saw us taking pic.

Whole gang MaLatLou @@

accept me =X

Well well, return to wad we expecting.. the NuFamily~ Nuster~!!

y not take a pic since we're playing the same game~and with the same last name in game too ~!

QWorld ROX!!

~hong me huang jeff and jervoise~

Well went home after that since everyone were tired~

but we went home for a bath b4 went to cc for gaming~

Foo and Vin went for wedding dinner b4 came to meet us.

As huang and hong are staying in my house~

they're pigging now ~ =X snapsnap*

Sad thing , they're leaving tomorow bac to KL, cos huang leg got fungus~ 

needed to go check up and cleaning on sat but slack* =X

came bac here and now i think his leg in big trouble already~

well its getting late and nites =X

hmms..

Hmmm..
Its friday already~ = =
Damn later need go and fetch huang and hong~
They came bac from KL to celebrate Vin bday.
And its hong bday too~ imba
Slp at 5am yest...but already wake at 9am..
Eye almost like panda d nahx. ~_~
Yesterday went to old town with Jeff and Eric..
Drank 2 cup chocolate - -
We were chit chatting till 11pm+ @@
Fuking Leo la.. so fun argue with gf everyday? =.=
Nvm... we play PaoQi with u d..
Since u dun care our buddy came bac from KL..
Ngahah~

Went to movie with Eric and Jeff on wed..
Watched 1 thailand movie~ dunoe wad name @@
I was late already.. cos suddenly asked Eric where is him and Direct bought the ticket already~
But the movie was nice~ it's about a girl.. that are a little Bit ..hmm how to say ._.
Nvm that.. the most important thing is she got talent..
Talent of hearing things~ and fighting skills.~
Woots~ it was so so "chi kek" when wathcing her fight.
Wvery kick are all almost HeadShot~.
Ngek ngek~ goona try it on Leo already to 'wake' him up @@

Anyway, later go fetch Huang and Hong le need chiong RedBox..
Dunoe need lap how fast d.. sure late..
After finish sing still need rush back BM fetch Vin = =
And go eat BakKutTeh =D
Ngahaha..

Hmm.. think i post too early ba for todays things =X
Better stop here and continue my online gaming ^^

www.qworld.com.my

Random~

Hmmm~went to oldtown yesterday with jeff, eric and yee pei~

jeff was the one that came and fetch me and we 2 end up late due to i need to fix my pc for my dad to have a VOIP chat with my sis in kl :D

i think eric and yee pei already there by 9pm.. while we arrive around 9.40 :X

ordered their special old town white coffee..

it taste nice in cold but it is really damn sweet and 'gao' in their hot~

and ive ordered the hot one.. damn -.-

almost faint drinking it..

well.. seems that our fren leo already started wad he most hated..

'ui chi mongkok'

we asked him not to run around on the night and come out 'yam cha' and yet he went to his gf home after work..

asking him wad time he will arrive he say 10+

we sat there till 10.30 and called him again... and he say coming..

we bet his 'coming' is still in his gf home..

eric were pissed and tell him that dun need to come anymore as were going home already...

leo.. wads the benefit going to ur gf home everynight?

she's just 14 and ur a 20 year old uncle d..

doesnt means that u go everynite and she will 'open wide' and welcome u..

shes too young for that and u better dun try it..

6year 3p?

we gave u better then u go in to jail for that..

anyway i have no comment on ur relationship..

just u dun do things so over as u less mix with us that called u out just once a week..

and u better dun do like that when hong and huang is bac or else things will go badly..

~

ok .. today need to wake up at 7 ~_~

damn it so early and its my pingging time normally..

wad to do.. my aunt need workers and asked me to go help out..

hais.. so damn sleepy the whole day..

work work work...

and went bac home around 7pm..

started my dinner as ive packed 2 pack of laksa bac to eat:D

were soo full after that =X

then bac to my PC~!!

started chionging huang char to top.1 while bringing mine =D

who wanna play can visit www.qworld.com.my

ok.. ned to bac lving..cya 

Bad day with a damn bad mood

I dunoe y.....

but it seems that these days.. everyone was trying to piss me off..lecturing me for no reason..

tis is me..u can get used to it...then byebye..fuck off..

im just being myself....any mistake on it?

 

Anyway..wad are 'friends' for u?

Theres no such things called 'friends' that exist deep inside my hear anymore..

It hurts thinking about it...wad will u do when ur most trusted one backstabbed u and betray u from behind? They came in front of u pretending to be nice..

and starting to bacstab u behind ur back.

They think i dunoe anything about it..but i think thats the worst mistake they ever made..

U guys already know that i will know anything....even that there are things that u dun wanna me to know but i still got ppl that will came to me telling stories...

I kept quite doenst mean i dun care..

I just dun wanna take things our and start a argue..

Thats not me alright?

I respect frens and they respect me...

I used to put this word 'FRIENDS' as wad i respect most..

but it seems that i was wrong anyway..

Or it just that i cant do anything right?

maybe..

Well~ im getting old already..

And i had stop my study...so there are alot to think now..

i've benn thinking for a few days...

wad must i own by the age of 30?

I bet that u guys there wont even think about it yet..

But it's good not thinking about it cos it will make u headach more..

Hais..bad day bad life...

get used to it and it will be just fine...

o.O

well i think its been fkin long since i last blog huh?= =
dunoe y suddenly got lz =x
some may think smth have hapen to me huh?
not much but quite a big change on me xD
heres some photo i uploaded during some event i join up xD
well how u like my VK Version 1.0? too bad dun have time to make up T_T
or else i look more nice rite? xD

well heres a pic i took with Moriko..
cute little girl huh? ^^

well here me with Kenny.. new Storm Vk @@ cool guy huh.
well those 3 photo above are taken on 26.06.2008 during Rockers NIght at Freshway Cafe
quite long also d hais~

k nows heres the recent one ^^v
taken on 10.07.2008
tis is my Vk Version 1.5
not so extream one xD
well with some piercing on it... hahas
well Bon-Odori will be held at tis sat. 19.07.2008
but i still dunoe wad to wear then..
think wear back my Vk Version 0.5 ba..
cos it will be 100% confirm very hot there.. T_T
after that then i update new photo to it.. XD
___________________________________________________________________

well now the time to start a brand new life..
new job..
new wear..
new life..
and wads more? dunoe how to mention it xD

things here doesn't really matter to me anymore..
i wanna get out of here...
its really stinks and sucks here..
wad are frens to me anymore..
why should i bother?
it really none of my business..
i know im very troublesome to u guys..
but dun worry..
i wont be disturbing u guys now..
i will leave this place..
and settle down at other place..
i dun wish to come back here anymore..
2 places... 1st.sg 2nd. london..
i'll make my choice and get out of here ASAP.
u guys take care..and dun find me anymore...
im worthless...
and i know im suck..
bye and take care~

Outing again xD ^^

went to queensbay again with jeff on tuesday heheh...

~*:*~ When In Queensbay ~*:*~

well this is my Vk Version 0.1 ~

how'd i look huh? ^^

nanana we're in da toilett~

big mirror huh? heheh

when ordering food ^^

well, alot ppl say i look like girl in tis pic.. true huh? ._.

cute little pig huh? ^o^v

Nice day hanging out again =x

hehe i went to sunway carnival today with jeff and hong =p
3 guys go watch "my wife is a gambling master"
its quite a damm funny movies =x
laugh non stop for the whole movie..
i can assume tat the whole place are full of our voices =x
and like everyone are looking at us when the shows end.. @@
but they giv me a shocking face when they look at me -.-
never c a punk before meh?= =
i just 30% complete of my jrock leh ._."
ai forget that..
then its about 5pm d when we go fetch seang..
haha...
wend to MEDS for our sub-dinner
lol
i was so loled when i read at their menu...
the cafe looks like an european style cafe,
but the food served are all japanese style... wth?@@
ai nvm that... ate a "ouki"
tat taste okok ~~
we were talking there for 1hour + after our meal ~_~
then all went ki siao, say wan go watch movie again LOL?
then think think think think think....
finally we decided to watch " what happen in vegas"
is time, 5 gays go liao @@
went to fetch meng, and off we go to pacific
jeff say wanna change places so tat can c different chio bo!!! @@"
we arrive there about 7.40 and direct go and buy the movie tic already
WTF, the movie start at 7.30 ~_~
the next session were at 9.30
wad to do... we bought the tic and wait there till 9.30 ==
lucky there are alot of simulator machine shop there..
heheh...
got something to entertain ourself b4 the movie start =p

its 9.30 !!
yipee!~!! finally can go in d ^^
tis movie is quite funny and romantic as well..
<33 it ^^
then again.. we laugh so loud..
and the voice getting louder cos we are now 5 ppl ~_~
and again, everyone was looking at us after the movie end~
and the same thing hapen to me~~"
nth to say,
just few word
" tis is called trend, u can eccept it or not, nt my prob ^^ cos i love it xD and im a Punker ^o^ "
after movie, its about 11pm d..
directly went home ^^
and end up cant slp..
due to stupid stomachade for few days~~
and it keep continue
dunoe wad i ate wrong ._.
think now felling better d...
think i go slp le..
cya all and good nite ^^

^^
i dunoe y these night keep cant slp well...
quite of becomming a panda already if tis continue ~_~
so fun coming bac own home,
just 1 day and our whole gang go have dinner together again ^^
have alot of talk like 10 yaers never meet b4 each time going out with them ^^
feel so close and warm haha ^^
sei meng nee say today wan go climb mountain but 774 me ><"
make me wake so early to wait for u roars ><
nvr sms tell me dun wan go or blablabla =.=''
feel like a gong kia at home wait lol
lucky got my pc pei me ^^
hehe

wu lalala qi mo lv~
ngahaha..
finaly left onli 1 more subject...
ngahaha..
stress over xD..
move to new hostel..
feel so great that SOMEONE not around with us ngahaha...
so miss the life without that SOMEONE ngahaha..
welcome welcome clean room xD~
have my english for science and business exam today..
i was way far from my target then i put my self a limit of 1 hour to finish out my english test...
damm it.. i used 65 minutes to finish it ><"
damm slow sia.. sianz.
but things were different on my business.. i used 1 hour onli..
eventhought i din do all.. but i ran home d xD
due to some minor part of the question i dunoe how to do xD
should have score enough to pass ba =x
ngek ngek

bad mood!

~*:*~ so fun hanging out with bro's ~*:*~

~*:*~ hehe went to Qb with all old frens,, ^^ ~*:*~
~*:*~ then went to sushi king for our lunch....swt~ lucky got bring cc= =" ~*:*~
~*:*~ stupid kor la,,, damm it,,, say wan go sushi king ~*:*~
~*:*~ ><" ~*:*~
~*:*~ ngahaha baka kor dun dare go find his ex =x ~*:*~
~*:*~ rebena was working at a shop there...but WTH, all girl clothing.. ~*:*~
~*:*~make stupiack kor dun dare go in also. ~*:*~
~*:*~ nub sia ngahaha ~*:*~
~*:*~ jeff call me go in with him, to make kor dare go in lolx ~*:*~
~*:*~ li hai ma , we 2 go in do siao, and stupiack kor dun wan come in also ~*:*~
~*:*~ = =" ~*:*~
~*:*~ end up all those gals workers inside laugh at us -.- ~*:*~
~*:*~ looks like 2 crazy freack ~*:*~
~*:*~ then end up we went to cinema for movie xD ~*:*~
~*:*~ watched The Fobbiden Kingdom ^o^ ~*:*~
~*:*~ so nice de movie ~*:*~
~*:*~ everyone was looking our gang ~*:*~
~*:*~ because we are way too noisy at the cinema =x ~*:*~
~*:*~ NGAHAHAH ~*:*~
~*:*~ after that we went home le ngek ngek ~*:*~
~*:*~ went to SYNC for gaming since few frens were back from KL ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ nth much to say, blek~ ~*:*~
~*:*~

~*:*~ ShIsHeNxAar0n ~*:*~

~*:*~ ^o^ ~*:*~ kor bac le ~*:*~ ^o^ ~*:*~

~*:*~ hehe kor and hong bac from KL le today =x ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ went out almost whole day..tired sia ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ went to Old Town chat again ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ almost 30% of da shop full of own friends @@ ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ so many came today ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ so de re nao ^o^ ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ sit sooo long there.. + so damm hot.. ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ long hair make me swt more ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ sianz sia == ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ in the end need to borrow some hair pin from nee to pin up my hair ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ ><" dunoe y all take pic after i pin up ><" ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ ppl walk pass also looking at me ~_~ ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ feel so weird la ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ damm it == ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ after so long gossip and chat there..went to NZ for gaming =x ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ feel so nice ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ then finally back home le ^^ ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ so damm tired ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ going out again tomorow ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ lucky no need drive == ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ go rest le..so damm tired ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ nitez nitez ~*:*~
~*:*~
~*:*~ btw baobei i miss u ^^ ~*:*~
~*:*~

~*:*~ ShIsHeNxAar0nx ~*:*~